PUISI yang di reka sempena Perayaan Autum Tengah

Terang Terang Bulan Menyinar,
Ke atas Badan ku yang Besar,
Ku melihat kanak-kanak bergembira,
main dengan benda yang dikatakan Tang lung.

Ku teringin makan kuih bulan,
dengan titik hitam di atasnya,
rupanya macam babi,
tapi sedap sungguh sampai ku meleleh.

kuih bulan oh kuih bulan,
terasa manis,
terasa masin,
ku makan dengan penuh rahi.
sedap sungguh.


happy Mid Autum Festival to ALL!!!


KOK!

Well..this week my parents have gone to CHINA for a trip...sigh..i'm here at home alone this whole week.

And for the first time i miss them.Hard to explain why i have this feeling...i mean i usually dont miss them...but somehow this time around i miss them much.

maybe its because i realise how much i love them, of maybe i just realise that how much they love me too.

Or maybe lately i've been spending quite some amount of money, therefore guiltiness crept in.
I've joined California Fitness 2 weeks ago + Went to RSH sales to grab some shorts and a badminton racquet that i was longing for, and spend a lil bit of money to buy the hard disk casing, and i'm about to purchase a new pair of badminton shoes.

Grand Total?
hmmm...1500+200+80+120=1900
and this is in like 2 weeks?i somehow feel guilty.
Anyhow, to repay, i shall be a good boy, to jaga the house, that dumb dog and keep the house clean for the week that they are not around.
and when they are back, i shall be good boy too...cleaning the house every weekend.
hey...thats a big sacrifice okay..weekend have to wake up early to do house chores...
but i feel more meaningful.

abit of emo lately though, unknown factor too...
Just like today, watching Rataouile and on sat i watched DreamGirls again...it inspired me.
Like dreamgirls, u could see how a group breakup so easily because of jealousy and all having personal goals.
Its all about reaching ur personal goals, and sometimes u just have to be selfish and u might not even know ur hurtin the people u loved most.
then rataouile have shown some true spirit in pursuing what u think u want to do.
he chose career over family, and finally gets his wish. He is satisfied, and the family is satisfied in the end.
Truely,i feel sometimes if we have a goal, we must try to reach it. Not just try...but must reach it.given it a 110%of heart and spirit...and most importantly the passion to do what u do.

anyway..its just another emo entry i should say..erm..other than dat, i'm not in the mood to type right now.

Emoness KOK

First of ALL...Congrats To the winners of 2nd MOnash Fooser Club DYP
First Prize
Melanie Loh / Ken Gene
Rm150+2Grips

Second Prize
Kate/Jhin Seong
Rm100+2Grips

Third Prize
Andrew Yong/ Lee Sue Ann
Rm50+2Grips

well..its consider a good tournament, because we catch a healthy ammount of spectators during the whole tournament, and well..i just love the fact that everybody is happy(Except me..cuz i din't perform well) in the end.

Great..now, i'll have some motivation to have another DYP and thinking ways to shorten the time for the DYP.
Today we had 8 Pairs..and it took 3 hours to complete.WOW...imagine if we were having like 20PairS!die lo...NONO..i dun wan to go to the extend of 5hrs of tournament.

hmmm...okay..dyp news is conveyed...now another interesting comment on the recent so called MONASH CHARITY cum MOTORSHOW.

Well, if any readers come across this post and is angry about what i'm about to say about the CUM SHOW....i'm sorry...i just hope you receive this critism with an open heart. and i'm gonna say it constructively. NO OFFENDs to anybody because i'm POINTING my DICK to the whole Organizer of the event.

First of ALL,
you guys should have organized a seperate event.
The clubs are putting so much effort to open the booth, and they only get so little. Some club even did not manage to cover their cost.
and WHAT a DUMB THING To do, where the booth in the CUMNIVAL side is so little compared to the MOtherF**Cking SHOw. Okay..u might say, "there's so little club wana open booth". Well therefore, shouldn't you give more empahsis on it?! Wheres the Charity that you wana promote.
Oh well, now you probably say, "actually, we didn't want to have the club and societies invovled, but we tot we are giving them chance to make money".
WEll, are you allowing them to make money, or you are just wasting their time!
C'mon use ur brains organizers!There is no emphasis at ALL in the CUMNIVal.

I've heard there are ppl promoting MOtherF**Cking SHOw in AC in everywhere...why can't you just promote the CUMNival Together?
ANd another reason to condem the MOtherF**king SHOw is that, you are hiring outside people to do it for you.
OKay fine..if you don't have the capabilities.Then DOn't do it!and ur spliting the earnings with the Organizers?WOW...it looks like MUSA wana make money now.
Well, the driffting SUCKS, the RC..well so so larr...the CARS?oh well, we can see those cars in everycorner around our UNi.BORRING....
RM5 bucks...not worth my money!

C'mon wake up abit MUSA.YOU do NOT MAKE MONEY!but u are to serve student.
AND ORGANIZERS...you should be standing at the Cumnival side, and not at the MOthoFucking SHOW! ORGanizers also don't show support to the CUMnival...can't you all just CUM and STAND there to create the crowd for the show?!
All i see was, OH theres a car knock the lamp Post..
then the next thing i see someone over the walkie panicking shouting for EGG(not real name)EGG to come in come in. and next its like the whole working security rush there to pick up tires.And they couldn't even stop the car in the track who is crawling in the track.
NO SAFETY at ALL!Use your BRAIn!
its a MOTOSPORT thingy, and there is nO MARSHAL. oh no...and you do not need 5-6 ppl just to pick up some tires in the track.
You need 2 PEOPLE to stack it BAck. AND THE REST MAKE SURE NO CARS ARE gonna go into the TRACK to Crawl.
NO FLAGS, NO MARSHAL, NO one to control the cars going into the track. NO SAFETY is A NONO for MOTORSPORT.
SHAME SHAME on the ORGANIzeRS.

I wasn't there for day 2, reason for being the whole thing is just a flop.
BUt what i hear is that, they asked the CNS to open booth from morning to the late nite.
What happend was THERE is HARDLY ANY ANT that crawling around at the site from morning untill evening.
Reason?
MOTHErF**King Show is only open At NITE!
WOw the ORGYNizers really knows how to fool the CNS.
NO proper instruction was given about the schedule. And they should have asked the CNS to do the same.open only at nite.
OH, you are saying "theres Show on the sTAGE mAR. Got things going on WAT!".
damn...did you even consider that, no one will come in the afternoon being because its damn hot.
AND who is gonna STand UNDer the SUN to watch Some one Performing?ANd those booth around there doesn't have any good carnival games.(no offend to the club but its the ORGyNIzers fault for not scrutinising properly).
Therefore, for those who open their BOOTH in the afternoon, were left eating their own (SHIT)money, and wasting time and energy.

HOnestly speaking, I know the ORgynizer is trying to do something big and great, but i must remind you to be HUMBLE to learn and to be Smart to be great.
Planings might be done in short time, but consideration of all aspects must not be left out.

If you think it was a sUCess. THINK AGAIN!Last year carnival was a Better one.
NOT in sCALE, but at least it satisfied the goal. and most of ALL, although it was RAINING, the show went on. and i'm proud to be part of that team.

And it was 80-20 Split...meaning the club gets 80% of their profits.
while this year was 40-60?wat you all wan to do with the money?
so that you can organize bigger sloppy stuff?
you think you can generate enough to give to the PAWS and to the others?
OH WOW...ambitious.
C'mon, if it is feasible, we would have done dat last year!
and why PAWS?Monash and Animals?hmmm...not related rite?
Monash and Society...NOW thats more like it.

ORGYnizer, CUMgrab to your SUCKsess and hope you ORGYnizers will GROW uP.
USe your BRain a lil bit wiser, and you can have another ORGY PArty.

This poem is dedicated to the ORGYnizer and the MOOOSA

BALL is CUMming,
nothing is RISing,
Where is the HEAT?
where nothing is NEAT. <---- Dunno wat i'm saying? well..look at the Booth deco.Nicely done?i don't think so..
We heard about the ComeBackKings,
where is other things,
which will make you king.

I hope you have all the things,
which i know the sponsors will be there,
but will you be able to handle those Blings,
which you clearly aren't the KING.

I'm wishing them GOOD LUCK..
and please let me have the BEST BALL in my last year of entire monash journey.

Again another long post.

Signing off.

-MR. KOK-

OH yea..life's great. ALot of things happend since i last blog.
HMM..always seems the case huh..
yea..i seldom blog..whatever..
i don't have the time.
i don't have time for me
i don't have time for anything.
Oh well..Family, girlfriend, uni stuff, friends, foosball, Sexyphone and other stuff.
LIfe have been always busy for me.
Its lucky htat my girlfriend still wants me.Cuz seriously i really don't have much time for her.
Anyway, this post supposed to be a My life review post.
Been abit of emo lately.Thus prompting me to write.but i din't have time so far..and today..i have the mood and have a little bit of time to write.
i'm typing as fast i as i could and yet, the flow of my thoughts isn't that great and fast.
I"M STUPID btw.

WEll..something i wana blog about is that my mom has finally finish her Chemo Cycle. WHich has lasted ONE YEAR and 6 MONTHS. We were happy as she left the hospital for the last time after her chemo treatment last week.
BUT she went in this week again.
because her white blood cell went down and her platlete count was almost zero.(for those who doesn't know, White blood cell and platlete is ur defence system of ur body.Without them, you are easily prone to have cough,flu,fever and whatever shit).
So she's back to hospital since tuesday, and the routine for us starts again.

Thinking about it, my dad and i had survived this 1 half year. Within this 1 half year, we shifted house in 3 months of planing. We organized a small gathering for family.
My aunts from aus and US came back in time for us to have a gathering, and also a sad new,
my grandma passed away 2 days before i was supposed to leave for BALI.

anyway...i didn't know how we pull through together, but we did it.
although it was really painful in the begining of the journey. but it seems normal to us.
i don't know, maybe we still have the pain inside, but we covered it..
and we don't look stress because we are used to it. BUT we are stressed.

ALso, whithin this year, we have grow to love each other more, and i learn to appreciate my parents more.BUt at the same time as i grow up, i needed more space of my own and more control of my life. Which means a little less care for family.

Maybe some of you might disagree with me not caring so much for my family. But you must know, i'm the only son. After my parents migrate to 'the other world', what is there left for me? ultimately friends and maybe a few cousins are my next closest 'family' member after my wife and children

THATS WHY PEOPLE, I DISCOURAGE YOU FROM HAVING A ONLY CHILD.
DON'T BE SELFISH. hAVE MORE KIDS PPL!

ITs hard for me, as when my parents are getting old. and i could not care so much for them, as i have my life to go on.
I know its selfish to say so, but if u are in my shoes, i think u know what i mean.
particularly my parents. my mom have pratically not much friends, and the 2 sister she has, are not close and well lets just say we don't function as a family anymore.
and my dad's side, all my aunties doesn't love my dad like they love their sisters.
so practically, they have not much people that could help us up.

through out my mom's sick period, we could only depend on each other.
sacrifice is being made. and lots of stress was taken. but not a single grunt made.

although her treatment is almost over, we hope to get back to normal life as soon as we can get.

but also that means she will be alone.

For me, i need to get close to more friends, need to hang out with friends, need to do the things i wana do. and for that to happend, my dad needs to be home.

BUT he so old already, still wana join lions club again and do all those stuff.
I'm being selfish for my own good. so he should stay home more often to teman mom.

where else i should be allowed to go out as i want. i know i sound so selfish.
maybe i should take that mentality away.

no..i don't like being tied down. i like to do whatever i want!thats how an only child behavior is.

being a good boy for so many years, i'm tired trying to please everyone. and no attention given.

i duno...it seems always the bad boy is given the attention. Don't you think so?

anyway life is great..i always tell myself.

i have a car at my disposal, a good girl friend, a big house, and a decent amount of freedom.
Great!

Anyway, shifting to this new house, has strained my relationship with my loved ones.
Dad, mom and shing wei. Even my dumb dog MAX.

lots of different opinion, lots of budget constraints. and the house is just too big for 3 of us.
HONESTLY speaking, i like my old house. Small and cosy.

Brain juice is dying now...
need to rest.
blog again till my feeling comes back.

i end abrutly because i just don't feel like writting anymore.

take care peeps.

-kocky-

Days has become monotenous
Sleep..wake up...drive...eat...sit...stare...wait for 12.15 for lunch...sit...stare..wait for 5:30 to come...drive...home..eat...sit...sleep.END of day one..and this repeats itself again for the rest of the days untill weekends.

BUT..sometimes..exceptional things happpends..such as company lunch..lunch treat from colleague...a few outing/site visit with engineers...

Days like today..i decided to blog more often..
but..i can't blog like kennysia...nor blog like how joanne blogs...or how other people who usually put lotsa pictures!

mine?plain text...

Boring eh?

honestly i find puting up images troublesome..and time wasting..
so heck it.
unless i'm damn freaking free at home..where my picture library is there..
and besides..i can't find the time to load pic up to the pic host.

I"m JUST LAZY..

anyway..having company lunch later...hehe..at a restaurant called Tanker restaurant near Damansara Specialists....

Damn..BOBO wants the com back..

shit later!
;)

Feeling i hate my own country!Feeling not loving it!
i hate it!i hate it! i hate it!
i hate the way things works out
i hate the way things goes
i hate the way our country is not getting any properous and instead declining
i hate the way we are being systematically marginalize
i hate the way we are being called 2nd class citizen while we kept providing the country with good business and kept the market alive
i hate the unfairness
BEING A LIBRA, I HATE UNFAIRNESS
i hate the way we are being treated
i hate the life that we have to fucking fight for everything...and in the end we loose out because we are not fucking 1st class citizen
where is the MAS that we once used to have...living in harmony..where we really have inter-racial interaction
GONE were the days where we can openly interact amongst races
GONE were the days where we have freedom to express wat we want
GONE were the days where we can celebrate festives without having to worry about other races(BEcAUSE everybody celebrates together in each every festive season)
NOW WE CAN'T EVEN CELEBRATE THE OTHER RACES FESTIVE(why? CUZ SOMEONE SAID THAT THIS BREACHES THEIR CULTURE AND BELIEVE...WE CAN'T CELEBRATE WITHT THEM CUZ WE DON'T PRACTISE THEIR BELIEV)
WAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEM!
DO you consider this is a fucking multiracial country living in harmony?
IF u do..ur gulible!
if u do..u fucking brainless!
FUCK U ALL
TASTE MY ANGER!

*DISCLAIMER:THIS IS PURE OPINIATED ENTRY. I DISCLAIM ALL SIDE EFFECT OR WATEVER EFFECTS IT BRINGS TO THE READER OF THIS ENTRY. USE UR BRAIN!

FUCK U FUCK U!
FUCK U STUPID PIG
I ASKED U TO ANSWER THE DOOR!YOU DON'T FUCKING SAY WAIT AND FORGET ABOUT IT!
U STUPID FUCKING IDIOT!
CLIENT WAITED FOR MORE THAN 10 MINS AND U DIDN'T FUCKING ANSWER TO THE CLIENT!
YOU MORON!
HOW CAN U BE DAT DUMB!
FUCK U!

Oh..its BOXING Day!
wat a day!
i'm in a fucking day
sitting at my office bay
doing nothing the whole day
and just had a fucking boring day.

and maybe i should just eat hay!
Feeling Fucking Angry
Feeling Fucking gay(Excuse me..its HAPPY=GAY not HOMO=GAY)
My gay feeling has sunken down,
because i want more pay.

Nothing feel more shit than a boxing Day
Having to sit at office all day.
Looking forward to play.,
hoping 2mrw will be a better day.

DAMN PPL! i FEEL FUCKING ANGRY
Angry at wat?
well i would not put it up here..
if u wana know..u can ask me..

just a noTe:
TO all u lazy MArtha Fuckin P people. i hATE u ALL!

Today i had a test, Today i had fun, Today I feel bad, TOday i feel FUn!haha...Its just another DAMN day which last from 8am till now..12.32am...non-stop of things happening.
Well, first of all, the day begins with...

8AM
Woke up...feeling damn tired, cuz i slept at 4am.DAmn..i hate exams on saturday...wasted my friday and saturday.

9AM
Upon reaching uni, started reading the last chap. trying to cramp, trying very hard to remember, trying very hard to make sure i know everything...but then time is always the main constraint.
and i admit...I"M dUmb!

10AM
Well..exam time....and this will last for 2 hours..
and for the next 2hours..i'm trying to figure out how to answer those damn questions!
Turn out..i actually know nothing..and i reallise i've not been revising properly.
Oh well..here goes 15% down the drain...
i vow to work harder from now on for finals!
2months is all i need!
give me the power god!

12AM
After battling with the damn paper for 2hours, my brain is just NUMB!(u know...how u feel after a series of exam..and ur brain just feels nothing!yeah...)
And then i was damn blur after thinking about exam stuff..and went for council meeting....
I entered with a damn blur face and looking damn blur..cuz i'm damn freaking blur.
Well..then as usuall the meeting is like any other council meeting...nothing funny and particular..
Nowadays i seem to care less about council meeting..and only voice out on things dat i feel its serious..otherwise..i'll just not make comments..as i tend to 'shoot' people indirectly...
no hard feelings for those who i 'shoot' before..nothing personal ya!..but then its just me...and after all, this is how my dad thought me and u can't blame me for following my dad's characteristics.
Dad's a leader person, having organizing various project, and his involvement in Lions Club, and also his active youth days, it has shape him into a leader person..which now i inherit it.
I think its a good thing also, that i have his leadership quality...but then i dun know how to sentence things when i say it out..and thus, sounding rude and like 'shooting' people.

Anyway...

3PM
i'm not sure whehter it was 3PM dat the council meeting ajourn or earlier..
after meeting i went down MUSA lounge and after searching for 50cent coins..
finally our big saviour GenSec has the 3 much needed 50cent coin, as mellisa has one.
So yeap, an hour of foos...good for relaxation.release some tension..and forget everything for a moment

415PM
went to foyer to see whats happening for the project..
Feel guilty for not helping much and should have come right after the council meeting ends,
but then, i'm a human, and i need a break...
my brain started working since 8 till 3 non stop..so i need a small break.
I promise to do more for the project..
Sorry guys..i'm really sorry

515PM
Meeting ended,and while waiting for eric's mom to come pick him up, we chated and bitch about some lectures in uni.Also we commented some lar....but overall..was just to realease the hatred towards some lecture.

615PM
Reach home...ARGHHH..parents not home yet.
quickly call....
SK:"you all went out for dinner?where are you all?"
DAD:"we are at selangor club, dinner after going cold storage at bangsar"
SK:"har..then ar nvm la..i cari dinner myself"

so yup...i was DINNER less!!i was quite tired..but i din't wana get nasi lemak anymore for dinner(tanjung is just right beside my house..so dats the nearest food outlet)..
decided to call SON as he persistently asked me out for yam cha and makan these few days.
So yep..called him..and woke him up from his 'wet' dream.
haha..too bad bro...i spoiled ur dream with

SK:'heloo..eh sleeping ar?!?!?! WAKE up lAr!dinner time..come go makan makan."
SON:" WTF!!! Ch*b*i, wake me up just for dinner!"
SK:" hey..i'm only free now arr...don't say when i'm free i dind't ajak u out!..so dinner?"

and yeah..it was DINNEr with dat guy..and his girl frend taged along....

AFter dinner, then sent his girlfrend back home..and then it was our usuall hanging out session.

Our usuall session starts with Pool,then after a few rounds, he was bored..and both of us today off form...(i think its the table!sucks!)

then he wanted to try foosing..so i teach him abit of foos..hehe..longest 2dolar game i've played...i think it was almost an hour before we finish 9 balls.

Then it was our usually Heneiken TIME!hehe..sat down..drink, talk KOK and chat stuff...usuall bro hanging out session.

Everything was done at 945PM..and then we reach his house only to find that NO ONE IS AT HOME!!!
and he has NO KEYS!
DAmn...i was quite tired..and somemore have to wait..
but it was okay..cuz we just talk KOK all the way untill his dad comes home.

11PM
REached HOMe!phew!damn long day it seems..
bathed, and then online..and chatted and researched my presentation for MEC3403 and also now..blogging..
and its now
1:22AM!!!
and i'm tired now!

So..yeap..i will just go to sleep now!
Cuz TOMORROW is gonna be another FREAkin Day!
Sigh...

-Tiredness SK-

Indeed a day worth blogging.
I don't know why, but today has made me feel somewhat a full day. living to the fullest ??maybe?
some how certain things that happened today made me feel better.
maybe it was becaused i studieD!haha..i was in uni from 8-12. studied full 2 + hours..
I was challenged by BOBO to finish 5 lectures in 2 hours..and he will buy me burger!haha..yea..i was hungry, had porridge for dinner, doesn last more than 2hrs.
so..i tried my best to finish in 2 hrs. In the end...although i reached lecture 5...i can only understand up to lecture 4. and when 5 comes in i'm abit blur..so i lost the challenge.
BUt anyhow, i still got my self a burger! Beef Special.
I think tonite life really begins when i'm online.
First of all, NNN session really get me going. i duno why, but then its just my source of entertainment, and maybe an exhaust to my dislike and anger.
i feel bad about the NNN thing, but then i sort of don't care, because of sometimes, these ppl are just so irritating, and untill such extend that i don't give face.i could say they deserved it. Unless they prove me wrong.Then i'll accept it, and appologise for my action. But anyhow, its all for your OWN GOOD!
secondly, tonite has been another proud moment of my life, because i gained trust on someone that i knew i can trust all along!i made a new True Friend! NOt gonna mention this friend's name, but then this friend here, i'm proud to have you.
It seems so long ago that i have another true friend. Someone i could really really trust.I mean, besides vhan,cal and gang(u guys no doubt..i trust u all, after wat we been trough)and others (u know who u are!)
But this new trusted friend really lightens up my day.
All this because friends to me are important. you people duno how much u guys mean to me.(i know it sounds corny but this is how i feel).
Would love to talk abit about elections, but then i guess now is not the time to talk about it.untill everything is over..then i'll write wat i feel.

A BITs of TOTs!
Human is human...this is wat came to my mind while chating.
We as human are not perfect, and will not be perfect.
i really wonder why humans are so complicated?why can't we be more simplistic and live a better life?
STOP VIOLENCE, STOP WAR, STOP GREED, STOP every element thats bad in our life.
THen another thought comes, if there's no BAD, how would we differentiate GOOD?
Monotonic life we will lead. ANdroid style?emotionless?
We need bad to realise good.
and thus YING and YANG factor.
Because i'm a libra, so i'm always balanced in thinking.
Everything comes in pairs, everything must be balance!
and i like even numbers compared to odd numbers!WEIRD?no...its just how a libra lives!
Also, libran prefers square than round.

Of things happened today,one of em is a friend's love problem. I wonder is dat a problem or is dat just sometimes 'shit' does happends.
however, this person had chosen to step into the love circle when she knew its gonna last only 3 months.
Not to say you are wrong, and you knew it all along, but when 3months is near, you feel the pain.It all your choice. So choose to live happy with it. and be grateful of ur 3 months!Afterall, first love lasts the longest!keep ur memories tight!
and after this 3 months, you'll still have a friend like me.!:P

well..its kinda late now. 2:48am..LUcky day for me..and wat a blog with full of anonimity. But its unavoidable as i'm touching sensitive stuff.

-anon KOK-